Everything I ever taught, I recently had to use myself. My mother who lived in Germany, where I was born, told me last November that she had cancer. I was in the fortunate position to visit her just a few weeks later and we were able to spend in spite of the glooming prognosis a happy and meaningful time together.
Living for 25 years physically so far apart had greatly changed our relationship.We were always very close and it was not really a surprise that we were each guided to learn Reiki, independent of each other in 1993. Shortly after, we started sending each other remote Reiki sessions on a weekly basis that went on for years. We both love Reiki and with this added "energy dimension" it was for us a beautiful way to connect while transcending the physical distance between us.
Over the past 8 years or so, it was mainly me sending my mother Reiki when she had a physical issue or needed some extra spiritual insight that generally comes through to me during sessions. My mom always felt when I sent her Reiki and she loved the beautiful soothing energy that came over her. And for me, offering Reiki always supports my alignment.
So here we were, having to face her upcoming death. We both had to accept the inevitable and make peace with the final letting go. How fortunate we are that we each find great strength and comfort in trusting that we are all on an eternal journey and there is no death. Yes, the physical part of us dies, but the soul our divine spark re-emerges into source energy and lives on. The last few months gave both of us opportunity to look at life, our relationship and end of life transition in deeper ways.
It has been my experience throughout my life, that "changes" announce themselves in subtle ways as to prepare us. All it takes is to be open. I trust my guidance and received my signs that my mother's transition was getting close. It was Sunday and we had spoken on the phone for a little while. I went to the post office shortly after the call to mail a letter.
As I got out of my car, my key ring opened and all my keys were scattered over the ground. My mother had given me this key ring years ago as a gift. It is an angel on a sturdy woven steel wire that fastens with a screw. This chain has never opened "by accident" before. I looked at the open key ring that I was holding in my hand and knew that it was the sign that my mother is getting ready to let go. I went back home and sat in mediation to tune more into her energy. I saw her turned away and was shown that the silver cord that is attached to her body looked frail and was ready to break. Over the following days our phone calls got shorter as she tired even more easily now. I could tell that she is pulling all her energy back from the physical world.
Now instead of sending Reiki to her body I was guided to send Reiki to her higher self and to communicate with that part of her to assist with the removing of fear of the transition. More and more time was spent in meditation and I found my consciousness predominantly with my mother's energy most of my waking hours and even throughout the night. In her final days frequent updates from the hospice nurses only confirmed the progression of her transition process that I had already felt and witnessed energetically.
The afternoon before her passing as I spent all my time in meditation and sending Reiki, her energy came to me. It was so very beautiful and heart opening! She wanted to be held and loved and comforted. It was like holding a child that needs to be soothed. She stayed with me for many hours and during that time all those human fears melted away for both of us. All there was left was love.
The next morning after a few hours of rest and speaking with the nurse I was guided to move back into mediation and sending Reiki. Shortly after 10:00am I received a call from the nurse. My mother had made her transition. I felt the wave of my mother's relief and peacefulness come over me. Her physical struggle was over and now she was free!
Two days after her passing while sending energy to her soul to assist with the adjustment to her new state of being, I heard my mother's voice loud and clear in my head! As she spoke in German her words were: "It is sooooo beautiful here and I am doing so well"! What a powerful and magical confirmation!!! And what a comfort! The following day she communicated with me further through a dear sweet person who specializes in communicating with "transitioned Loved Ones". My mother wanted me to know how much the energy work had assisted and prepared her. She reported that it had provided such a peaceful loving space, that she was able to fully surrender during her transition and experience consciously the Oneness that all spiritual masters speak about. I could feel her joy in my heart as tears of deep gratitude and relief ran over my face!!! She shared that it is so much more beautiful where she is now, than she could have ever imagined. She invited me to join her energetically during my mediations. She so wants to share her joy and love. I look forward to this new part of our relationship as I believe we are eternally tied together through the power of love on our journey's through lifetimes.
At first I was not sure if I should share this deeply personal experience. But it feels like my mother is nudging me! It is my hope and heartfelt desire by sharing my personal story, that someone feels more hopeful and might loose the fear around death and dying.
If you or someone you love is facing death and you would like some comfort or support I would be honored to speak with you and possibly support you energetically. For an overview of my services please go to www.utecoaches.com
In loving memory and deep gratitude,
Ute is a Life Coach and Reiki Master providing support to individuals who seek alignment, growth and greater well-being.